Well i know that i just posted my first entry not very long ago but i've been doing alot of thinking.
Last weekend i spent the weekend in winnipeg visiting my cousins before i leave for the summer. The last day of being there, the sad news reached us that a friend of my cousins was killed in a car crash. We had been out at the cabin for the weekend and so we didnt have access to a newspaper and so getting back to the city, the first thing my cousin did was buy a newspaper to get the details. Reading it broke my heart. He was only 17, just graduated from highschool a week before. He was someones brother, someones boyfriend, someones best friend, someones son, even someones enemy, but no matter what he was, he was something to someone.

Before i get too deep into this, I'm not trying to say that i know what everyone who had to deal with this is going through, because i dont. I've never had to deal with the loss of a family member, a best friend, a co-worker, someone i love and care about, or someone I'm close to, to something like this but i hope i never have to. But yet I have had experiences that have hit close to home, and this one hit closer to home than any of the others. Seeing someone i love and care about deeply affected by this hurt me. It broke my heart to see my best friend cry and try and comprehend the fact that he would never walk or drive down the street again, he would never sign onto msn again, he would never show up at another party again and she would never run into him again at 7-eleven or safeway. Even for me, though I didnt know him, it felt like a bad dream that i would soon wake up from, but it wasnt a dream, it was reality.

Its sad to think that this kid was a kid just like me. He had hopes, dreams, goals, ambitions, a future, a past, and even regrets. I bet he had so much planned, and was going to make something of his life. Maybe he wanted to be a doctor or a scientist or a baseball player. He was only 17.
This whole situation got me thinking about life and how often we take it for granted. It only takes a second for life to change. It can only take a second for life to be gone.
I know its a depressing topic and so we don't think about it very often, but who knows when it will all come to an end. A couple years ago, kids from my highschool were in a bad car crash and a couple of them were killed. Thats the first time i ever remember thinking about how fast life can be taken away from someone. On the friday before the accident, i remember walking down the hallway and seeing one of the girls who got killed, i remember thinking nothing of it, probaby thinking oh i will see her again monday or sometime next week. But i never did. Never again would i see her in the hallway, never again would i stand behind her in line to buy food, never again would she be there. Never again.

Another thought that came out of this whole situation is that i dont appreciate the people that are in my life enough. Its safe to say for myself and probably many other people that I take the people i love for granted. I have the idea in my head that they will always be there, but thats a lie. I dont want to think these thoughts, but what if today they were here and tomorrow they weren't? Would they know that you loved them and appreciate them?

So i guess what i'm trying to say is take time to appreciate the people you love and care about because life can be taken away in a second. It doesnt take much. A hug, a hi, anything. Just something to show them you care before its too late and you regret it. and don't take life for granted.

So to all my friends family out there, i love you and appreciate you. no matter what i say or do. just always remember that.

Also please pray for my cousin, and the family of the boy who was killed. Pray that they will find the strength to get through the hard times and that they will find comfort and peace in the hard times ahead of them.