Sometimes I feel so inadequate, so unprepared and too small to accomplish the things I want to do. I want to change the world but yet I am one small, insignificant girl from Regina, SK. Who am I to make a difference and change this world. Feeling inadequate hinders me from taking chances, risks and taking steps forward. I fall back on comfortable because I'm inadequate to move forward; I fall back on things I know I am able to do, things that far more match up to my size. Being inadequate has became an excuse for sitting back, for not moving forward out of my comfort zone, for not becoming who I could become if I really tried.

An even greater fear of mine that I cover up with my fear of being inadequate, is the fear of what I truthfully could do and accomplish if I let myself be used. Labelling myself as inadequate sets up a wall against being used and stretched in ways I don't want to be. Sitting back saying who am I to do this, who am I to do that, is far easier than putting yourself in a vulnerable position that you have no control over. Giving up control is never easy, especially if it means uncomfortable and awkward situations may come of it. It's easier to keep control and sit back, then to let go and leave everything you know.

I am terrified by the ways god would use me and stretch me if I honestly let him. Even though its terrifying, it is also so exciting at the endless possibilities I would be faced with and the things I would do and the power I would have. I pray that I will give up that control and that I will let myself be used. Sitting back on comfortable, telling yourself you're inadequate will never get you anywhere and it won't change this world; letting yourself be used in powerful ways will!


Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of god. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
-Marianne Wiliiamson